Why going back to blogging ?

I started blogging when I was in middle school, and I’ve never been able to keep a blog more than six months. I get quickly bored, or I just give up thinking my posts are not that interesting. Over the years, I tried, and tried again but no. I guess it wasn’t the right time for blogging.
I had tried to start a new blog in French (my native language) a few months back. Without any real notions about blogging, I started searching for articles about how to start a blog, how to start blogging… And I found myself stressing over them. “If you don’t do this or that, you will never be read, nor popular”. I was thinking “but I don’t care, I just want to have fun with my blog”. I saw articles saying about how you HAVE to blog every day, write every day, keep an eye on every social media as possible…
I litteraly found myself overwhelming by all those poisoning advices (poisoning to me).


What changed this time?
Firstly, I quit my job last August (an article will be publish someday soon about that), so blogging is a way for me to get busy. It allows me to talk about what’s on my mind, and share what I find interesting.
Second, I want to show myself that I’m perfectly capable to manage a blog with my anxiety issues. For those who also have anxiety issues, you probably understand what I’m talking about. I will talk more about this later in this article.


Why anxiety is my ennemy to blogging?

Anxiety is what will mostly bring down your self esteem. ALL THE TIME. Your work will always be shitty, no matter how many hours you spent on it. You will think that others are always better than you (that’s the reason why I delayed so much on opening my blog). You will lack of self esteem so bad that you will only look from afar, people doing and enjoying the job, or the activity you want to do so bad.
I know some of you might be tempted to say “Well, don’t listen to that little voice saying all those terrible things! You can do it!”

Easier said than done.
Not really.

Anytime I want to start writing an article, I opened Libre Office and let the page blank for a couple of days, not because of laziness, but because of my anxiety, and my lack of self-esteem. In the end, or I closed the software, and do nothing, or I could eventually start writing, but not in a happy mood. So when the time of proofreading my article will come, I will see that it is not that good (and back to square one).


In the end
Blogging won’t be an easy task for me, I know it. And it’s better to start this journey knowing this, but I’m sure I will learn a lot, and meet tons of new friends. I know that I will probably fail on some things, and that’s fine, truly.
That’s the risk of doing anything in life. You will not succeed right away :)
PS: There is no right way to blogging. Just do it the way you like!

12 comments:

  1. Coucou !

    Comme je te comprends! Je pense que le blogging est un bon moyen pour découvrir plein de gens et apprendre plein de choses!

    J'ai eu ma période skyblog moi aussi et depuis, je n'en avais plus un blog seul blog mais j'avais envie de recommencer.

    Courage ! Faisons le ensemble !Je vois qu'on partage beaucoup de centres d'interets !

    Je te souhaite une excellente journée !

    PS : je te laisse l'adresse ici, openID fais des siennes
    https://memoiresdaimas.wordpress.com/

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    1. Coucou!
      Merci pour ton commentaire! C'est jamais évident de commencer quelque part, surtout avec les gens négatifs qui sont bien souvent trop nombreux.

      Merci pour ton blog, j'irai y faire un tour! :)

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  2. That's interesting, i can't wait to read the article you will post about it. True it is not easy thing to do but good luck!

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    1. Thanks a lot for your comment! :)
      Nothing is easy when you start something, but it will get easy after some time when you are used to it ^^

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  3. It does seem crazy that something as simple as blogging can actually be hard and cause us anxiety. I thought it would be easier.

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    1. I know right? I was thinking of using my blog as a way to get my anxiety out, and I now realise that it is not that simple!

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  4. I love this. I haven't been blogging too long, but I have definitely found myself already "failing" in a lot of ways! haha Actually wrote a blog post about that. I've started looking at it as a learning point or another push to get back on track! I'm trying to look at the "failures" more as a positive thing!

    I'm interested to continue reading your journey! I think you will do great!! I especially love you last sentence. Since when did blogging have to be done a certain way! You are so right....as long as it makes you happy, that should be enough!

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    1. Hi Kayli!
      Thanks a lot for your comment! I see a lot of new persons trying to blogging and already losing their self-esteem :(
      It's a shame because I really think everyone can add their little something to the blogging community :)

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  5. Speaking of which, I need to update my blog. D:
    Haven't touched it for months.

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    1. And you need to give me the URL!! :D

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  6. Can't wait to read your article about your last job... If you don't know her already, you should check out Katrin Berntd's videos on Youtube. She talks about anxiety and mental health (not only, but you might find these topics interesting :)) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LItuUg3DG9Y for example

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    1. I'm sure you can't wait :p
      Hmm I'm wondering if you haven't send me her channel already! ^^

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